Sue and I visited her this morning, did her shopping and fixed up and stocked her medicine chest ready for the carers new role tomorrow administering her pills etc. Mum was pleased to have us there and seemed OK. Both the midday and afternoon carers managed to get her to eat Ok and we provided a tupperware container with some pills if she needed them at night. We left her in relatively good spirits. At about 6.00 pm she rang home in tears in pain from dizziness and headache. Sue explained where the pills were. However, I decided to go and make sure she was OK. She wasn’t, she was upset wanted to die or go in a home. I checked her pill box. the 4 betahistine were by her chair in the lounge. There was no sign of the two paracetamols we had left in the container. I gave her a betahistine and one paracetamol. I don’t know if she had taken the two paras that we had left, but I find the box in the rubbish bin. I also applied cream to her shoulder because it was hurting her. I waited a while and when she had calmed down a bit she got ready for bed and I went home. 15 mins later she rang again, couldn’t find any pills. She had forgotten everything. Sue and I have had to visit almost every day this week through calls like that. I am at the end of the road now and this isn’t fair to Sue or Mum. She is going down hill fast and I don’t want to see her ending her life like this. Tomorrow morning I will contact Barty House to see if they have a vacancy for respite care which could become permanent. If they will have her she will have to have a Covid-19 test before going. The big downside is that no visitors are allowed due to the pandemic. That will upset Mum but I am afraid the most important thing now is her safety and I know she would get excellent care in there. I feel awful about possibly moving her, but if I can I know I have to do it.